What's next??

As more time passes, and the days draw closer to my appointment with another neurosurgeon to hopeful have an answer for the continued migraine pain I am in, the time inches closer towards my 37th birthday. I dont know why but for some reason this birthday resonates with me as being old..I know that its not in retrospect..but I guess, in my "fantasy" world , I had expected many children by now and for them to be close to 10 years old.

So what is next for us...with my health not being so great, we have totally had to put the fertility stuff on the back burner. Back in March we purchased the shots to begin our hormone therapy, which we will still go through with, but I need to be in a little better shape first.  We have decided that we will do one or two more rounds of fertility treatments with the injectables, and if that does not work..then we move on to adoption.  In the mean time we have already started looking at adoption quite seriously. There is no harm right now taking a look around and gathering as much information as we possibly can.

I believe that we have settled on doing a domestic adoption versus an international one...we have weighed all the pros and cons and just think that is a better option for us.  I have to say that I am pretty excited at the thought of adoption (NOT THE $$ part..ITS EXPENSIVE!), but the thought that I could have a little one in 6 months time...how wonderful is that! We havent given up on a biological child of our own yet, but for now, my body is just not in a place to carry a child and maybe it has been God's desire for us to adopt all along.  We will have to see what the surgeon says on Friday for me, and if I will be having any more surgery in the near future, which I honestly hope he says yes. I have been in SO much pain, and am just ready to have this all to go away again.  WE appreciate all the prayers, texts, phone calls, and words of encouragement as we have been on this journey to making our family.  We will have a family one day soon...I hope! :)